I have two amazing step (I personally loathe that term. But, any whoo…) children that I love and cherish with my whole heart. However, Ashton is my only child. For nearly the first 6 years of her life it was just the two of us. We shared a bed, a seat at a super small table and every day together. I love her dimples. I love her smile. I love her sparkling green eyes. I love how her hair falls into mahogany ringlets. I love the quirky way she walks. I love how she marches to the beat of her own drum. I love her laugh…its indescribable and contagious. I love, that no matter what…she never really matches. I love the pouty look she gives when she doesn’t get her way. I love her.
When I was pregnant, like most mothers, I dreamt of her life, made plans for her and prayed that I would be the best mom ever and promised that I would do whatever to give her the “best life”.
Now, approaching 15 years later…I am celebrating her life with abandon…abandon of me, my control, my way, my plans. Not because I give up…Oh no…but because I believe and have prayed God’s promise of, delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4) God knows the desires I have for her, the details….are His. Solely.
Our children do not become idols because we love them too much. It happens as we neglect the wisdom and grace extended to us to teach and pull out the God given potential they are created for.
This giving up control has been a wandering season of my walking with Jesus. It’s been part of my undoing…and I couldn’t be more grateful for this magnificent trade.
Today let’s pray that our desire for perfection for these beautiful lives are traded for the wisdom to teach and pull out their God given gifting’s and potential. God, give us eyes to see and ears to hear your ways. Amen.