Monthly Archives: September 2014

A Magnificent Trade

I have two amazing step (I personally loathe that term. But, any whoo…) children that I love and cherish with my whole heart. However, Ashton is my only child. For nearly the first 6 years of her life it was just the two of us. We shared a bed, a seat at a super small table and every day together. I love her dimples. I love her smile. I love her sparkling green eyes. I love how her hair falls into mahogany ringlets. I love the quirky way she walks. I love how she marches to the beat of her own drum. I love her laugh…its indescribable and contagious. I love, that no matter what…she never really matches. I love the pouty look she gives when she doesn’t get her way. I love her.

When I was pregnant, like most mothers, I dreamt of her life, made plans for her and prayed that I would be the best mom ever and promised that I would do whatever to give her the “best life”.


Now, approaching 15 years later…I am celebrating her life with abandon…abandon of me, my control, my way, my plans. Not because I give up…Oh no…but because I believe and have prayed God’s promise of, delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4) God knows the desires I have for her, the details….are His. Solely.


Our children do not become idols because we love them too much. It happens as we neglect the wisdom and grace extended to us to teach and pull out the God given potential they are created for.

This giving up control has been a wandering season of my walking with Jesus. It’s been part of my undoing…and I couldn’t be more grateful for this magnificent trade.

Today let’s pray that our desire for perfection for these beautiful lives are traded for the wisdom to teach and pull out their God given gifting’s and potential. God, give us eyes to see and ears to hear your ways.  Amen.






Hi. I’m new here. Well…kinda! I created this blog a couple of years ago with all the intentions of actually putting it to use. Then, I came undone. I pray you will find hope and an extension of mercy in my journey of undoing.

Here goes……(deep breath)

“God has a plan for you Becca! I see it, He wants to use you for something BIG. Let Him!” -Jena Forehand

Those words were the lyrics to the melody the Holy Spirit was and continues to sing over my life.

It was 3 years ago, this beautiful confirming song. At first, I was reluctant to speak up much less put myself out there. I was clear on God’s invitation to journey toward knowing Him…fully…intimately and extending the invite to other women to journey alongside me. The how….not so clear.

Lies flooded my heart.

I was afraid.

For a year I hid. I struggled…excuse after excuse.

Then…..One year ago….I DID IT!!! I sent an invitation, without agenda, without worry of who would accept.  I waited at my house that Saturday morning with a terrified excitement. Women began arriving…it was an awe moment. I felt a beautiful peace, God was there among us…with His completely surrendered daughter.

Month after month women have gathered around a table…broke open the bread of life and …..there a magnificent beginning to a  journey of undoing.

My heart is for women, of all walks of life and ages, from this city…this state…this country…this world to accept the invitation of undoing.  To empower women to seek out, to know…our Lord. To equip them with Truth and tools to use their gifts to further extend this invitation until every table is gathered around and every journey begins.

You’re Invited.

Let’s journey.